Monday, February 8, 2016

Tak pasti

Hidup ini mesti harapkan bahagia. Dan kau harus gembira dan maafkan,lupakan
Sesiapa yg pernah hadir dlm hidup kau. Kerana dunia ni tak kekal. Tak sekekal
Di sana. Kau harus cuba terbaik hingga kau tak terdaya. Sesuatu itu
Merubah dalaman kau, di situ kau cari kekuatan.

Hidup ini perlu ada tangis, supaya nanti kau hargai saat kau ketawa. Perlu ada diam
Supaya kau rase ada yg kurang... perlu ada ruang berfikir, kerana itu adalah vakum
Antara waras dan gila...

Badan yang gila, jana akal yang gila. Kalau kau kata batu dan sungai tidak bernyawa!
maka manusia kau sombong dan ego. mereka lebih hidup! dari kita... malah makhluk
Allah sentiasa bersama kita...

Jadi kau rasa kau sukses?, kau makan sepinggan harga nasi satu keluarga? Masih
Merungut menyesal sudah tiada rasa. Hakikat, zaman kanak kanak puas kita terliur sudah
Nasi panas dan telur goreng tika ibu tiada. Hakikat.. nikmat itu puas....

Baru ku faham, susah itu Allah bagi nikmat berlainan dari senang. Risau tiada pada yang
Kurang, tetapi menghantui yang pada yang Ada.. jika kau bahagia ketika kanak2, cari lah hidup yang begitu.. itulah bahagia.. dan itu yang di cari cari hingga di temui kembali...

Sunday, January 31, 2016

Shutdown tendency

To see a boy without a father is to walk out from crowd. I remember when he stunningly running to a man wearing a sweat pants, and that really was a heartbreak. Its was a year ago.

Everything goes blank, because i cant take charge of what he felt. I hope everything would
Iikely be better.

Next year would be the school year, challenging only ummi known by all of your friends. If anyone concern too much, we just black out and head for the playground.... if anyone demands we just dont listen anymore. In the end, people make fuss and leave us alone.

A lesson we, u and i learn.

Hearts..

Wednesday, January 27, 2016

Muhibbah

During primary, i remember we had muhibbah relationship against race. I remember munching on my sandwich, and i ask my chinese friend  what  she is having.

SHE said BABI, AND GRINNED. (comel grin) 

I said OI! Jauhsket and also laughing.

Not sensitive issue pon.

My neighbour was an indian, she is my babysitter
But best part Auntie is alllllll by far the fairest skin ive known.

MY kala past away(Auntie daughter), and she always had this heavy anklet with lotsa small bells
And i see her practise her traditional dance. Until i can do that eyes & neck. Ehem. She likes to called me gundu although i think i was skinny.(gundu - gemok)

When their cousin came for deepavali, deepa, as she is my junior... i will join their group
and play monopoly!
Deepa is so preety mcm ala ala hindustani kasta tinggi and i have never heard deepa converse in tamil.huh? So during the nite, mesti ade yg nangis kalah! Likely always deepa

Also swee yim, the girl who lives in perfect bungalow house in southern park. But she is most humble
And most down to earth person. We are in the same class until standard six,  new year party ja i always treated as vvip.Sneaking on adult on how they get... em u know. Imbalance brain hormone. And sometimes her driver would come and fetch me all the way to palm grove. Cool huh, she had the same bf since form 2. Oh by that time, my best budies was nicholas. Pelik mak tak marah kwn ngn non malay... gesh..

I had those non malay to be my best companions all the way until i went to tikl & college and discover another environment. Its seems they have been my soulmates til now.(smilling)

No not bff. Because when we metup we will always forgot to selfie. Its just like continous conversation and next stop n say bye bye.

Kite kwn dgn jenis kite baru rase feel sikit...

Bye!

Lotsa lurve!
Zzzzz....

MyMuhammadNurKhaleefa(Khalifah)

Thank u apam lately for not being difficult for me. I hope everything goes smoothly for you soon.
You are the year end babies. It is now only u are singing twinkle songs and abc.

You already 4 when you just celebrate 3. I hope im always there 4 u. Its been a year you hv being a miracle baby...

Dont grow up too fast...

Monday, January 25, 2016

World

World. At one peak, you have realize it is not permanent. Even as a mother.  Or even as daughter. (But this doesnt mean we can escape )

I visualize this at age 13. Thinking that something is wrong, i have my answer by age 33.

To equalize this, you have to repent and let Allah deal with your soul.

Everytime an event hurts, it brought some reminder that this is not permanent.

I was thought into remembering someone you dearly missed, can caused syirik. Missing a dead person can caused depression. Allah will removes everything that blinds your heart, until u realize this is not our main task.

This might be a fitnah, as Allah warn 40 is the maturing age. May Allah have grace upon us, and 40 will bring us best as individual, to family.

Its 4years to go, before 40. As the rate of pumping heart be not as good as 30.  By the time you are buried, both two angels (mungkar nangkir) will come to your feet u lays,(fuh) and imagine all those good deeds and pahala will come and guard you? (dgr di IKIM)

As i redho who ever comes but i always imagine heaven (cant imagine pon) as resting place for all. Peaceful than i can imagine. But how about sakaratul maut? How much is the pain? THINKING OF IT, i cant blink my eyes and describe colloborations with any pains i had in life. Or it is not pain, its an experience by now.

Its funny when a person would joke abt death, yes i was one of them. But silly that each of us will face and say hello to.. The angel of death..... huhuhuhu....

Allah have mercy & guide us ......

Hearty,Ina.

Sunday, January 24, 2016

Serene

Sometimes out of darkness, you just proceed to walk without noise. Sometimes you share laughters but at times u just hide them. You walk until u have forgotten what brought you here...

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Life ek?

Allah bagi kepandaian dalam pelbagai cara.

Berdikari
Tapi lawan ckp mak bpk, hidup mmg berdikari, sehinggakan kadang makan meggi rase seronok and fun. Tak jauhi maksiat, tu pasal la glamer. Degil lak tu, at last burden by debt. By the time, baru realize rezki tak masuk pasal mata dan akal tak terjaga. Ur plan but Allah plan overtake u in one sec.

Lupa bersyukur
Rase mcm dah learn a lesson. Kau nak fix baik baik kali ni and kau serik. Jadi kau buat ape yg kau rase perlu buat.Everything seems on plan, but tiba tiba Allah change plan tu.  Kau lupa bersyukur and terasa diri bagus. Segala nikmat yang kau rase nikmat tu... di tarik.. Kau nak bundled 10years exp org and cramped it dalam 2 tahun...  kau rase sedih nikmat di tarik..

Hardship comes ease....
Bila kau rase dah tak boleh bergantung dgn sesiapa, kau rase Hidup ini kau kena urus sendiri. Stage ni, kau sesal utk tidak berlaku relax dari mengikut perasaan. Perasaan syukur yg amat datang mengetuk jiwa kau. Walaupon tak lengkap kau rase aman. Bebas maksiat. Bercakap hanya yg berfaedah. Bila kau cari, Ilmu itu dtg menolong. Tiada rasa penat. Tiada rungutan. Kau sandar dgn Allah ja. Tiada rasa ketinggalan dalam dunia fesyen ka, hiburan ka... and kau realize... ini adalah nikmat. Maksudnye, perasaan di stage Lupa bersyukur totally dismiss from you? ..

Kepayahan dtg kesenangan tu, bukan bermaksud susah Allah bagi senang! Indeed Allah beri kepayahan itu utk kita tabah. Bila tabah kita jadi senang(Kuat ler) Kali ini datang dengan tanggungjwb, harus lah mak tabah huhuhuhu....

Bila kau dah senang....Rase perfect. ALLAH turunkan penyakit org lain ja nampak. Merasai. Kurang empathy pada org lain... but bila kau susah.. Allah bukak mata kau besar2... ego kadang adalah musuh kau sendiri..

Gaji besar yg kau rase nikmat tu, agak pelik pasal kau x puas nak belanja dan kadang tak cukup. Kadang pengurusan out. Boleh pulak lupa setel hutang wajib and buat hutang baru. Hak hak.

Jadi jangan pandang rendah orang miskin yg diam. Every second high chances dia menikmati nikmat Allah yg mungkin aku samar2 rasai..

Mcm light pollution, kau takkan nampak meteor shower ka or langit yg beribu mak nenek bintang! Kalau kau tak away from city light pollution.. so city light pollution tu contoh status kita, kerja kita, rupa kita, fame kita.. so Allah betul bagi lah apa yg kita nak... walhal nikmat sebenar at just by looking at the stars.. menandakan kebesaran Allah Taala. (rase ke tak rase.. bukan dlm keadaan berborak ok)

So response will be

Mamat A :   gila kot mamat ni duk masuk hutan. Dok usha bintang.. (living dunya)
Mamat B :    kesian...(kat A)

(^_ O ) /

Huhuhu..