Sunday, April 19, 2015


I was told, when young. Choose the wealthiest as they have everything & everything will do good when you have money. So i did. But exactly you do not know when they show off their parents money. They went to so called "International School", so i left my kampung boy knowing that he do not know what to do. I am impress with the new guy because i wanted to be like the family. Exactly.. i am leaving my family behind for the life that i want, & i think it is right... Years later, i was left behind he was doing superb, i forgive until i yet find someone who is like me. He drove theCAR, owns BIGHeart, let me drove his car & i manage to persuade myself that the jerk i was b4, sungguh berlagak vavi showing off people that he has the life "people" want... (childish years) But when you delay a marriage, when Allah has yet gave you a moment to go for it.. Things would have been better. But it is okay , i forgive & knowing he is living a good Life.. Alhamdulillah... I was saved by my kampung boy & get to know things that i didnt catch, Try to blend in with the culture of soft spoken. From being seperated, as he is engaged in Trg & i am in KL. Until i bow to Allah to brings him to KL & wonders & moment that i would spent with him soon.. I draw all the possible moment... But the existance turned into something else (-_-) .. I changed & try hard to switch my soul to a better person. So i cant be Mad to someone who is walking the path i walked b4... Life is a choice. Now i understand, the Faith someone told me years b4 i had my child. Life indeed a constant changing then you will discover something else. Our destination is indeed back to Allah. There's no right or wrong, just time to heal the pain. Meanwhile living the fullest with the only child i have for now.. yeap with the big family... I hope Allah 4give me to even to the darkest things i have hide..during youngsters.. Who ever i hurt, or i mistakenly say no to, there must be a reason behind it & again i crave for all forgiveness. ... (-_-)... Salams

Wednesday, April 15, 2015

To the darkest moment

Walk tru your darkest moment & you will find light. For time being i will just wonder around until He shows me ways again. I have no stories & no regret. Its the ending that would save all from the beginning. p/s:Dear Lord, thanks for blessing... heart.

Reminder to self

Monday, March 23, 2015

Lets talk about Faith

I believe that the person with worst history would make the best and better person today. Only when he or she realize that she has mess up in the past, it should be fix now. By the time that other are burn out, you should accelerate now. Only when you are alone, you are wiser with your decisions. Only when you are out alone, you realize how family are priceless and how fake people lives out there. Allah created mankind for a reason. A traveller. To learn, in and out we are always His servant. Let this be a new chapter, and my history blog are being private. As much as how happy & sad was my past, I love them in every each of lesson & reason behind it. Keep any good friends within circulation, avoid those who are negative & always be a plain simple human... May Allah protect Us